It's 00:16 here and fireworks are blazing across the fence which makes sleeping a challenge... So I figured a nice long chat was in order. In case you couldn't tell, that didn't exactly work out and I'm posting a blog for my non-existent audience to read.
I thought better of talking to Will for the third night in a row as I don't want to come across as being needy. so I thought that it was the perfect opportunity to get in Luke's good books...clearly this plane didn't take off. Don't get me wrong, we did have a conversation (even if it lasted about 10 minutes) but as soon as I asked an innocent question to keep it flowing there was no response. Was it too early for the winky face?? Does he hate me?? Why does he hate me?? Does he think I like Will?? The panicked thoughts are endless. I sent the question in the same minute he previously sent a message so falling asleep is just not a possibility. Now, on my ipod's internet it says that the message has been seen over an hour ago (proves how long I have been pondering over it) but on laptop it does not as when its an inboxed message it doesn't normally say if it's been seen or not!!! AAAAAAAAAA I AM GOING TO GO INSANE!!!!! I guess I will have to find out in the few short hours I have to sleep until he does or does not reply..
But why oh why does the conversation flow so much easier with Will if he isn't the one I am trying to have conversations with?? I don't really know how to put it into words...he makes me laugh, smile, he reassures me, comforts me, listens and, is such a gentleman and..... I even told him I blog...NO ONE KNOWS I BLOG! Of course I didn't tell him how to find it...I'M NOT STUPID!!! but even after all this-I still want Luke a.k.a the one I can't have, the one who doesn't want me back hell, he doesn't even hold a conversation with me... To Luke I'm just another girl. Why would he wan tme when he could have the gorgeous Emma??Someone his age?
Oh for the love of God ...lighten up! you may be an underaverage girl (will said that's not true..awwwww) but I like being single!!! hmmm keep telling yourself that.
Underaverage Girl
xxx
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