Caught in a landslide... of emotions

Sorry it's been a while but I haven't quite known how to put it into words. In the end I thought 'caught in a landslide of emotions' captured it perfectly. I'm sure you will have guessed by now, I am stuck between two feelings.. in the Will department.
All this time everyone has been saying that I've 'friendzoned' him but I'm beginning to think I'm the one in the friendzone, quite the contrary. (If you aren't familiar with the term 'friendzoned' then it is treating someone like a friend when they would like to be more than friends, therefore trapping them in the zone of friendship.)
Whoever said that boys and girls can't be just friends were sort of right. You see, we are just friends so that's still true but it has been complicated on my side by some developed feelings.
Well, I say 'developed' feelings but I wonder if they have simply been in the dark all along.
I really am in a great pickle now. And Jode isn't picking up her phone. Complete disaster.
We haven't spoken that much recently due to his exam nerves for his results but we finally spoke like old times last week. However, we then had two back-to-back arguments basically because I'm unable to really take a joke (he takes them too far though) and I then overreact and say stupid things because I don't realize his responses are jokes (e.g- well I guess this little relationship meant a lot more to me than it did to you. Geez, hormones, what they do to a girl) We both apologized to eachother and then it was alright, except for his results, he was really unhappy and it meant he didn't get into the sixth form he wanted so he's stuck at his current secondary school. This put me in a tricky situation because I wanted to be supportive without coming across as patronizing. I still don't feel like things are completely patched up and I really feel like I need to see him but I don't think that will be for a while and I don't want to suggest it. I feel like I'm stuck in Limbo. It doesnt help that he seems to have vanished off the face of the earth either. I think he's away but he didn't even tell me.
To be honest, I miss him.. a lot, and all I want is to feel his arms around me and is heartbeat against my ear as I rest my head on his chest and his hot breath on the back of my neck. I need to feel close to him, supported by him, protected by him, I also miss the teasing, all the 'have you rekindled your fire?' 'have you grabbed her and kissed her yet Will?' 'when's your next date?' 'when's Will coming for dinner?' even the 'Y'know you broke Will's heart when you dumped him'
That last one always confused me because they never sounded like they were joking, did Will seem different when we went through our bad time where we stopped talking for a while? Did he seem more attached to our relationship and I just didn't notice? Did he feel well and truly friendzoned? I really need to talk to him about this but I just don't know how and it would be a lot easier if he would come back from planet William.